friday rant...
when do you stop, draw the line and say you are done? done with the 'life competition' if you will, done with pleasing everyone else but yourself for whatever reason, all my life i have felt like i have to please everyone, live up to every ones expectations for myself, instead of my own. i have always tried so hard to fit in, yeah with friends or acquaintances, but with family. whether it be getting the better of grades, being better with sports, having accomplished this or that. i'm so tired of it. i'm tired of doing things 'my way' and having someone feel disappointed in me, or theres always 'you could have done better' or someone trying to 'one-up' me in another way.
i'm honestly convinced that some people in my life just don't want to see me happy. whenever there is a big event in my life, someone has to come around and rain on my parade. there always has to be a down side to everything exciting happening around me, whether it be a a event of actual idea. there is always that one or two people that oh, they've been there, done that and whatev. or the find the bad in it.
i'm tired of trying to 'fit in' with people i should not have to feel that way around. worrying if i would disappoint anyone and then the worry of the 'gossip' they'd start. the talking behind my back...etc. really? i'm 26, why should i have to feel this way? truth is, i shouldn't.
so, to those who make this all come into my life, this sick to my stomach feeling worrying about all this crap i'm done. took me long enough to realize it isn't, and you aren't worth my time and worry. if you don't like what is going on with me, oh flippin well. you will no longer have my sleepless night of worrying. and please, if you don't have anything nice to say to me, don't like whats going on in my life, don't talk to me. your negativity is no longer needed.
i'm honestly convinced that some people in my life just don't want to see me happy. whenever there is a big event in my life, someone has to come around and rain on my parade. there always has to be a down side to everything exciting happening around me, whether it be a a event of actual idea. there is always that one or two people that oh, they've been there, done that and whatev. or the find the bad in it.
i'm tired of trying to 'fit in' with people i should not have to feel that way around. worrying if i would disappoint anyone and then the worry of the 'gossip' they'd start. the talking behind my back...etc. really? i'm 26, why should i have to feel this way? truth is, i shouldn't.
so, to those who make this all come into my life, this sick to my stomach feeling worrying about all this crap i'm done. took me long enough to realize it isn't, and you aren't worth my time and worry. if you don't like what is going on with me, oh flippin well. you will no longer have my sleepless night of worrying. and please, if you don't have anything nice to say to me, don't like whats going on in my life, don't talk to me. your negativity is no longer needed.
posted by Bianca at
6:36 AM
2 Comments:
B - don't let anyone bring you down - seriously, whoever harbors any sort of resentment for your happiness should just go eff themselves. You need to separate yourself form people like that. This is adulthood - people that are like that now, will remain the same way, and there is no need to stick around, and hope for them to one day realize that they have come across the wrong way more than once! Hold your head up high and say no and bye-bye to whoever is making you feel said way.
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