its one thing to be a wife...
..and another to be a army wife!
10 months, that's almost how long we've been home...
the day abe told me we were going to be able to be stationed at home, i was excited! of course its bittersweet, leaving a town you've come to know, and some great friends a girl could as for!
we spent days counting down till the big move, planning things for when we're home, with our families and friends. anxiously waiting till we could be snow-free and have some bill millers sweet tea, Mexican food and spurs games on local channels!
fast forward to today. i think back, isn't it funny, how all those people who were "so excited" for us to come home, no longer exist in our lives. don't get me wrong, i don't want or expect the world to revolve around me, or us as a family. i feel like what we were so excited to come home for, is no longer here. people just have either different priorities, or just don't care. its sad when you have to lower your expectations of someone because that's just how they are now.
maybe i just don't have anyone to relate to here. i love being around our families, and thank God that we are here and have the help, especially with the baby. but in kansas, we all had the army life. we all understood waiting for formations to be over, early mornings, late nights, deployments...the list goes on. i didn't have to explain a sad face, when people just knew, understood, and helped. they knew we don't look for people to pity the army wife, but to support her as we supported each other. sometimes i wish i could snap my fingers and just spend the day with another fellow army wife and mommy. i've found myself day dreaming of a PCS more often than not these days.... thinking of starting again in a new house, new town, new friends to be made. but will it be that great? i know it'd be hard, leaving our families, but really? seriously won't miss the drama & people taking advantage of everyone.
i miss the "ok i'm up cause he had PT wanna go to starbucks?" mornings... the "formation is running late wanna get dinner and watch Grey's" evenings...and the long convos on the sofa just waiting for days to be over.
i guess i should stop compliaining and be grateful for what we have, and where we are. we're extremely blessed to have such a beautiful baby boy and the family who has helped us... just 10 months ago, i thought things would be different, a lot different than what they are now.
10 months, that's almost how long we've been home...
the day abe told me we were going to be able to be stationed at home, i was excited! of course its bittersweet, leaving a town you've come to know, and some great friends a girl could as for!
we spent days counting down till the big move, planning things for when we're home, with our families and friends. anxiously waiting till we could be snow-free and have some bill millers sweet tea, Mexican food and spurs games on local channels!
fast forward to today. i think back, isn't it funny, how all those people who were "so excited" for us to come home, no longer exist in our lives. don't get me wrong, i don't want or expect the world to revolve around me, or us as a family. i feel like what we were so excited to come home for, is no longer here. people just have either different priorities, or just don't care. its sad when you have to lower your expectations of someone because that's just how they are now.
maybe i just don't have anyone to relate to here. i love being around our families, and thank God that we are here and have the help, especially with the baby. but in kansas, we all had the army life. we all understood waiting for formations to be over, early mornings, late nights, deployments...the list goes on. i didn't have to explain a sad face, when people just knew, understood, and helped. they knew we don't look for people to pity the army wife, but to support her as we supported each other. sometimes i wish i could snap my fingers and just spend the day with another fellow army wife and mommy. i've found myself day dreaming of a PCS more often than not these days.... thinking of starting again in a new house, new town, new friends to be made. but will it be that great? i know it'd be hard, leaving our families, but really? seriously won't miss the drama & people taking advantage of everyone.
i miss the "ok i'm up cause he had PT wanna go to starbucks?" mornings... the "formation is running late wanna get dinner and watch Grey's" evenings...and the long convos on the sofa just waiting for days to be over.
i guess i should stop compliaining and be grateful for what we have, and where we are. we're extremely blessed to have such a beautiful baby boy and the family who has helped us... just 10 months ago, i thought things would be different, a lot different than what they are now.
posted by Bianca at
11:25 AM
1 Comments:
sorry to hear that you are/were so down. are there groups on post that you can get with to find those army wife friends you long for?
you are always welcome to get together with me, but when we try to plan something, something else comes up or somebody has a cold haha let me know if there is anything i can do and we can make it happen. :)
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